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| I think that i'm going to practice civil disobedience simply because i hate this time of year and money. too much hassle for moi. i'm also going to pull my hair out, stomp my feet, put on a smile and off to work.... april is the cruelest month...you're breeding smiles out of dismay and mixing infatuation with indifference. ...are you so forgetful? (....i remember) | | |
| You ever feel like you are going to explode? this time bomb in the pit of stomach is usually brought on by a word, maybe a sentance (after all, it is the little things, right?) not spoken or thought by you. And it turns out that what you have left is a feeling of resentment for said speaker, with whatever notions or ideas you have formulated all on your own in your mind. And it sucks when it makes you cry, b/c irrationality is the base of our human lives, along with emotions that don't mean anything in the end. But in irrationality we find reason for carrying on, even if life seems blank and heartless afterwards.
Usually this is helped by listening to Anti-Flag after conversations that implant explosives in your central nervous system.
or maybe it's a bomb you made yourself that is ready to be set off by any imbalance or inconsistency in your beliefs....belief of self, others, life, etc. Either way, it sucks. There is a positve aspect to all this bleakness, however... you acquire tougher and more resiliant skin than the last time. I'm gonna turn into a Rhino. | | |
| I know that to want is not to need, but only to desire
you, namely being the object
And I, cannot stand for this deception
spoken, in your eyes i watch you lie.
The fool's fool in this act played by
me, whispered by all mainly
Seen from specks of their own self
pity reeking down from higher chain need.
Catastrophic wishes line the seat you sat down,
and i told them to get up, you were the only
One to disagree..quit your contrary ways
i find them too refreshing, and stop looking
At me that way...like you're the one
i've always wanted and can never ever have
love, catastrophe waitress.
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| this ones gonna be short and sweet, on account of the fact that i'm ready for bed and still need to review some psychology. I suppose there are worse things in life. like having your life wrecked by one single hurricane, not knowing what to do for the rest of it. that's no good. i think all the haitians are ok....i'm growing quite fond of them. loveloveloveloveloveloveloveloveloveloveloveloveloveloveloveloveloveloveloved and by the way....i'm the Boss D.J. | | |
| so, i figure that i'm pretty much pathetic. not in the sense that i think later in life i'll own three thousand cats. More like i'm the kid that would rather hang out by themselvese with book in hand. Funny enough, however, more of life requires social experiance than expected. Dang it. Not that i don't like people. i'll deal with ya'll as a being, myself, something i regret saying i am. Maybe that's where prideful people get off being so arrogant. They just think of themselves as not human, b/c how could we be something so stupid and deprived? Not meaning to sound pessimistic or anything....downing the whole human race is my goal, you know. No....it's me being faced with the knowledge that we are all prone to only thinking of ourselves and what benefits us. selfishness. Plauges the mind and life.
So how am i supposed to be holy? (set apart, i mean) I'm just me and don't claim nothin' else...used to, won't deny. Used to care a lot about what you who are reading this thought. But take away all legalism, and you really examine yourself. i suppose all i'm saying is that i'm mad i don't have it all together. but i never will? is that what i'm getting? i guess i knew that already, just forgot. do you know how long it's been since i've listened to this song? it reminds me of my sister getting married, and steven lawson introducing me to death cab. thanks friend. :) Peace | | |
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